1 00:00:17,297 --> 00:00:20,338 Dakle, on ima mnogo... rođendan... 2 00:00:20,589 --> 00:00:21,921 stvari. 3 00:00:21,921 --> 00:00:23,505 Uvijek je. 4 00:00:23,505 --> 00:00:24,839 bio sam... 5 00:00:25,213 --> 00:00:27,880 neuspješan (smijeh) 20 godina 6 00:00:27,880 --> 00:00:29,213 i tako dva prije mnogo godina, 7 00:00:29,213 --> 00:00:31,046 Izvlačio sam sto-- sva zaustavljanja. 8 00:00:31,046 --> 00:00:33,880 Kao, planirao sam ovaj veliki vikend, 9 00:00:33,880 --> 00:00:36,589 Imao sam - bio sam jako se trudim, 10 00:00:36,589 --> 00:00:39,338 ali u mom fokusu na... 11 00:00:39,338 --> 00:00:40,463 -vikend... -Mm-hm. 12 00:00:40,463 --> 00:00:41,755 bio sam... 13 00:00:42,088 --> 00:00:43,630 ne pažljiv... 14 00:00:44,171 --> 00:00:45,672 tijekom tog tjedna vodeći do toga 15 00:00:45,672 --> 00:00:47,213 a on je zadržao govoreći mi... 16 00:00:47,755 --> 00:00:50,171 zapravo, "Ti laješ uz krivo drvo," 17 00:00:50,463 --> 00:00:51,589 a ja nisam slušao. 18 00:00:51,589 --> 00:00:53,130 A ja nisam shvaćao. I bio sam kao, 19 00:00:53,130 --> 00:00:54,213 "Oh, samo... samo ššš." 20 00:00:54,213 --> 00:00:56,255 Kao, "Ja samo... Moram -- moram... 21 00:00:56,255 --> 00:00:58,171 Samo čekaj vikend, samo pričekaj vikend." 22 00:00:58,171 --> 00:00:59,589 I rekao je... 23 00:01:00,755 --> 00:01:01,963 „Otkaži sve. ja ne... 24 00:01:01,963 --> 00:01:02,921 Ne idem s tobom. 25 00:01:02,921 --> 00:01:03,755 ja ne... ja ne... 26 00:01:03,755 --> 00:01:05,213 Ne želim ništa. 27 00:01:05,213 --> 00:01:06,213 Ne želim ovo. 28 00:01:06,213 --> 00:01:08,255 I usput, gdje je moja putovnica?" 29 00:01:09,589 --> 00:01:11,255 I otišao je u Italiju. 30 00:01:11,255 --> 00:01:12,255 -[smijeh] -[smijeh] 31 00:01:13,547 --> 00:01:16,046 ♪ ugodan bas i bubnjevi♪ 32 00:01:23,797 --> 00:01:26,088 ♪čekaonica glazba♪ 33 00:01:26,338 --> 00:01:28,255 [duboko izdahne] 34 00:01:30,463 --> 00:01:31,921 [uzdahne] 35 00:01:34,171 --> 00:01:36,046 [duboko izdišući] Vau. 36 00:01:36,046 --> 00:01:37,088 U redu. 37 00:01:39,963 --> 00:01:40,839 [šaputanje] Ne diraj me. 38 00:01:40,839 --> 00:01:43,046 [smijeh] [šaputanje] prestani 39 00:01:43,046 --> 00:01:44,297 [uzdahne] 40 00:01:49,297 --> 00:01:51,463 -[nerazumljivo] -Da. 41 00:01:51,463 --> 00:01:52,130 -Bok. -Bok. 42 00:01:52,130 --> 00:01:53,630 -Hej. -Bok. 43 00:01:55,921 --> 00:01:57,714 - Sjednite. -U redu. 44 00:01:59,130 --> 00:02:00,714 [Mau] Nemam komplicirane potrebe. 45 00:02:01,088 --> 00:02:04,213 Potpuno sam transparentan i potpuno komunikativan 46 00:02:04,213 --> 00:02:05,547 o tome što želim. 47 00:02:05,547 --> 00:02:06,547 ja sam također... 48 00:02:07,130 --> 00:02:08,630 potpuno dosljedan. 49 00:02:08,630 --> 00:02:10,714 Ja sam najlakša osoba... 50 00:02:10,714 --> 00:02:11,797 do -- baviti se. 51 00:02:11,797 --> 00:02:12,880 kaže ti. 52 00:02:12,880 --> 00:02:13,672 kaže ja. 53 00:02:13,672 --> 00:02:14,963 Pa reci. 54 00:02:14,963 --> 00:02:16,213 Što -- što su tvoje želje? 55 00:02:16,213 --> 00:02:17,672 Sve što želim je, ovaj... 56 00:02:17,672 --> 00:02:19,005 Vidiš, pokušat ću smisli kako to reći 57 00:02:19,005 --> 00:02:20,463 tako da ne zvuči užasno. 58 00:02:20,463 --> 00:02:22,005 Pa reci strašno. 59 00:02:22,797 --> 00:02:25,755 Dakle, ono što želim je da... 60 00:02:25,755 --> 00:02:28,005 - imati nultu odgovornost. -Mm-hm. 61 00:02:28,005 --> 00:02:29,880 Imati sve seks kakav želim 62 00:02:29,880 --> 00:02:31,255 bez ikakvih... 63 00:02:32,755 --> 00:02:34,422 bilo kakav rad na moj dio 64 00:02:34,422 --> 00:02:35,380 bilo koje vrste. [smijeh] 65 00:02:35,380 --> 00:02:37,005 Kao, nula posla. 66 00:02:37,005 --> 00:02:38,839 - Ne razmišljam o tome. -Mm-hm. 67 00:02:38,839 --> 00:02:40,589 I...ne -- 68 00:02:40,589 --> 00:02:42,046 I ima biti oboje... 69 00:02:42,463 --> 00:02:44,005 spektakularan i entuzijastičan 70 00:02:44,005 --> 00:02:45,088 i pravi. 71 00:02:45,380 --> 00:02:46,505 Hm, tako da... 72 00:02:46,505 --> 00:02:48,213 Ali želiš - - - 73 00:02:48,213 --> 00:02:51,088 rođendansko iskustvo biti takav? 74 00:02:51,088 --> 00:02:52,839 Kao s -- s rođendan na primjer. 75 00:02:52,839 --> 00:02:54,338 [Orna] Rođendan, da. 76 00:02:54,338 --> 00:02:55,714 -I što se dogodilo? - Stavljala je sve ovo... 77 00:02:55,714 --> 00:02:57,338 - Što se tebe dogodilo? - sav -- sav ovaj trud... 78 00:02:58,463 --> 00:02:59,463 ali... 79 00:02:59,463 --> 00:03:02,422 stvari koje je ona bila raditi je stvari 80 00:03:02,422 --> 00:03:05,171 da je mogla samo zamislite da bih htio 81 00:03:05,171 --> 00:03:06,589 ako nikad nije bila obraćajući pozornost. 82 00:03:06,589 --> 00:03:07,714 Na primjer? 83 00:03:07,714 --> 00:03:09,672 Na primjer, bilo je bit će... 84 00:03:09,672 --> 00:03:11,088 kalendar kostima 85 00:03:11,088 --> 00:03:12,463 a onda je bilo dominatrica 86 00:03:12,463 --> 00:03:13,630 - a onda je bilo... -[smije se] 87 00:03:13,630 --> 00:03:14,547 kao -- 88 00:03:14,547 --> 00:03:15,463 Imala je, kao... 89 00:03:15,714 --> 00:03:17,714 Znaš, uh, vjerojatno je, kao, troje. 90 00:03:17,714 --> 00:03:18,921 Bilo je kao... stvari. 91 00:03:18,921 --> 00:03:20,005 Seksualni događaji? 92 00:03:20,005 --> 00:03:21,880 -Da. Svi -- svi -- Da. -O da. 93 00:03:21,880 --> 00:03:22,880 Ali ti si znao o tome. 94 00:03:22,880 --> 00:03:23,797 Nije bilo iznenađenje. 95 00:03:23,797 --> 00:03:24,880 -Mmm -- -Ne. 96 00:03:24,880 --> 00:03:26,547 Nije bio potpun iznenađenje. 97 00:03:26,547 --> 00:03:28,547 Znaš, dio toga je bila tako oduševljen time 98 00:03:28,547 --> 00:03:30,005 nije ga mogla zadržati sebi samoj. 99 00:03:30,005 --> 00:03:31,463 -U redu. -I bio sam kao... 100 00:03:31,463 --> 00:03:33,088 Čuli ste ovo 101 00:03:33,088 --> 00:03:35,130 potencijalno uzbudljivo događaji kao...? 102 00:03:35,130 --> 00:03:36,171 Mm-hm. 103 00:03:36,171 --> 00:03:37,547 Pa nisam čuo njih kao bilo što. 104 00:03:37,547 --> 00:03:39,213 Ja jednostavno primijetio da... 105 00:03:39,880 --> 00:03:42,921 radiš što želiš učiniti... 106 00:03:43,755 --> 00:03:44,880 za mene umjesto 107 00:03:44,880 --> 00:03:46,797 što ti želim učiniti za mene. 108 00:03:47,422 --> 00:03:49,088 -i -- - Pa da dobijem... 109 00:03:49,088 --> 00:03:50,797 -Mm-hm. -još više u korov... 110 00:03:50,797 --> 00:03:52,005 -Da, naravno. - Tako npr. 111 00:03:52,005 --> 00:03:54,463 seksualne fantazije odigrao se 112 00:03:54,463 --> 00:03:57,088 bilo bi Annieno seksualno fantazije a ne tvoje? 113 00:03:57,088 --> 00:03:58,755 - Pa, ne baš. -Je li to ono što govorimo? 114 00:03:58,755 --> 00:04:00,505 Ne, oni -- bili su nekako kao... 115 00:04:01,130 --> 00:04:03,963 njezin opis od onoga što su moji bili 116 00:04:03,963 --> 00:04:05,422 ako nikada poslušao me. 117 00:04:05,422 --> 00:04:06,839 Mislim, bili su objektivno -- 118 00:04:06,839 --> 00:04:08,672 Bili su neki... fantazija onoga što želiš, 119 00:04:08,672 --> 00:04:09,797 - ali nije baš... -Tačno. 120 00:04:09,797 --> 00:04:10,463 pogoditi cilj. 121 00:04:10,463 --> 00:04:11,255 Za početak, 122 00:04:11,255 --> 00:04:12,171 svi zvuče poput zabave. 123 00:04:12,171 --> 00:04:13,255 -U redu. - Tu nema problema. 124 00:04:13,255 --> 00:04:14,672 Svi su bili... sve je bilo dobro. 125 00:04:14,672 --> 00:04:15,505 Da je samo bio... 126 00:04:15,505 --> 00:04:16,963 - slučajna subota... -Mm-hm. 127 00:04:16,963 --> 00:04:18,130 a ne tvoje rođendan... 128 00:04:18,130 --> 00:04:19,297 - također... -Shvaćam. 129 00:04:19,297 --> 00:04:20,297 možda je i bilo još malo dobrodošli. 130 00:04:20,297 --> 00:04:22,380 -Shvaćam. - Bio je to taj pritisak... 131 00:04:23,380 --> 00:04:25,130 - njegov rođendan. - Ali zato što je bio rođendan, 132 00:04:25,130 --> 00:04:27,088 osjetilo se posebno pogrešno podešen? 133 00:04:28,630 --> 00:04:30,088 -Je li to ono što govoriš? -Pa, da-- da, da-- da. 134 00:04:30,088 --> 00:04:31,380 -Mislim... -Svake godine. 135 00:04:31,380 --> 00:04:32,755 To je zamka. 136 00:04:32,755 --> 00:04:33,547 ako je to to, 137 00:04:33,547 --> 00:04:34,921 ako je ovo, kao, -- 138 00:04:34,921 --> 00:04:35,797 velika hura, 139 00:04:35,797 --> 00:04:37,130 ovo je ono što ja -- 140 00:04:37,130 --> 00:04:38,005 bio sam... 141 00:04:38,505 --> 00:04:42,297 25 godina postojanja Gospodin Amazing je bio... 142 00:04:42,297 --> 00:04:44,963 kao, čekanje, enh, i to je bilo to? 143 00:04:44,963 --> 00:04:45,921 Onda, kao, ne hvala 144 00:04:45,921 --> 00:04:47,380 Ja sam -- ja sam samo ne zanima. 145 00:04:48,547 --> 00:04:49,422 postao si... 146 00:04:49,963 --> 00:04:50,963 bijesan. 147 00:04:51,297 --> 00:04:52,088 ne mislim ljut, 148 00:04:52,088 --> 00:04:53,672 Mislim da jesam razočarana. 149 00:04:53,672 --> 00:04:54,589 -Mm-hm. -Uh... 150 00:04:54,589 --> 00:04:56,672 ne znam što radim krivo. 151 00:04:56,672 --> 00:04:58,714 Ne znam što ja mogao učiniti drugačije. 152 00:04:58,714 --> 00:05:00,672 Ne znaš što griješiš? 153 00:05:01,422 --> 00:05:02,380 Da. 154 00:05:02,380 --> 00:05:03,880 Kao, ja-- Pa zamislite to... 155 00:05:04,171 --> 00:05:05,797 Želim da ona to učini nešto drugačije, 156 00:05:05,797 --> 00:05:06,672 -točno? -Mm-hm. 157 00:05:06,672 --> 00:05:08,171 Mogao bih je natjerati da to učini što god želim. 158 00:05:08,171 --> 00:05:09,672 To nije što želim. 159 00:05:09,672 --> 00:05:11,797 Ono što želim je za nju da radim što god želim 160 00:05:11,797 --> 00:05:12,463 bez mene... 161 00:05:12,839 --> 00:05:13,505 morati... 162 00:05:14,338 --> 00:05:15,380 ostvariti to. 163 00:05:15,380 --> 00:05:16,297 Da samo... 164 00:05:16,297 --> 00:05:18,005 Znaš da želim čašu vode 165 00:05:18,005 --> 00:05:19,171 prije nego što pitam 166 00:05:19,171 --> 00:05:20,839 i tamo je čekajući. 167 00:05:20,839 --> 00:05:21,630 I to... 168 00:05:21,630 --> 00:05:23,005 C--mogu li te pitati nešto? 169 00:05:23,005 --> 00:05:23,921 Naravno. 170 00:05:23,921 --> 00:05:25,839 Jeste li ikada imati koga... 171 00:05:25,839 --> 00:05:26,714 paziti na tebe ovako? 172 00:05:26,963 --> 00:05:27,505 br. 173 00:05:29,171 --> 00:05:30,714 To stvarno zvuči materinski. 174 00:05:31,213 --> 00:05:33,130 To zvuči kao, znaš, 175 00:05:33,130 --> 00:05:34,714 majka/dijete obveznica. 176 00:05:35,338 --> 00:05:37,797 Da, imamo svoje trenutke s ljubavnicima 177 00:05:37,797 --> 00:05:38,797 gdje to moze... 178 00:05:39,088 --> 00:05:40,005 dogoditi, ali ja ne... 179 00:05:41,046 --> 00:05:42,213 ne znam, 180 00:05:42,213 --> 00:05:43,005 to je upravo ono palo mi na pamet 181 00:05:43,005 --> 00:05:44,005 kad si bio govoreći to. 182 00:05:44,380 --> 00:05:46,714 To je prilično dubokoumno što reći. 183 00:05:47,046 --> 00:05:47,963 Stvarno? 184 00:05:48,463 --> 00:05:49,714 Nije pošteno... 185 00:05:50,005 --> 00:05:50,797 - očito... -[smijeh] 186 00:05:50,797 --> 00:05:51,672 odvraćanje pažnje... 187 00:05:52,171 --> 00:05:53,088 beznačajno...? 188 00:05:53,505 --> 00:05:55,005 [smijeh] Mislio sam bilo je duboko. 189 00:05:55,005 --> 00:05:56,088 Ono što je duboko o tome? 190 00:05:56,088 --> 00:05:57,213 kako je to duboko? 191 00:05:57,213 --> 00:05:58,046 [uzdahne] th-th-- 192 00:05:58,046 --> 00:05:59,422 Crtanje toga paralelno? 193 00:05:59,422 --> 00:06:00,714 Je li -- mislim, to je kao -- 194 00:06:00,714 --> 00:06:01,880 - Kao, zar ne? - Siguran sam ako otvoriš 195 00:06:01,880 --> 00:06:02,839 jedan od ovih knjige, 196 00:06:02,839 --> 00:06:04,338 na prvom je jebena stranica. 197 00:06:06,005 --> 00:06:07,672 Samo se pitam ako si svjestan 198 00:06:07,672 --> 00:06:08,505 kako... 199 00:06:08,505 --> 00:06:10,672 brzo si se pomaknuo do devalvacije. 200 00:06:12,630 --> 00:06:13,963 znate li to? 201 00:06:13,963 --> 00:06:15,755 Ja -- mislim to nije me briga 202 00:06:15,755 --> 00:06:17,130 kako sam se brzo kretao do devalvacije. 203 00:06:17,130 --> 00:06:18,130 Bilo da ti je stalo o tome ili ne -- 204 00:06:18,130 --> 00:06:19,630 Jesam li -- jesam li svjestan da ponekad, 205 00:06:19,630 --> 00:06:21,130 krećem se brzo do devalvacije? 206 00:06:21,130 --> 00:06:22,088 Da. 207 00:06:22,088 --> 00:06:24,046 Ali i ja sam primjećujući... 208 00:06:24,380 --> 00:06:25,255 ovaj... 209 00:06:26,213 --> 00:06:27,921 kako je teško da te zapravo upoznam. 210 00:06:29,255 --> 00:06:30,422 Primjećujem čak na putu 211 00:06:30,422 --> 00:06:31,297 Ja govorim tebi... 212 00:06:31,297 --> 00:06:32,088 Mm-hm. 213 00:06:32,088 --> 00:06:33,255 da je vrlo teško... 214 00:06:33,255 --> 00:06:34,046 shvati to kako treba. 215 00:06:34,380 --> 00:06:36,088 Kao kad probam da ti odgovorim 216 00:06:36,088 --> 00:06:37,714 što se događa -- što sam upravo čuo... 217 00:06:37,714 --> 00:06:38,338 Mm-hm. 218 00:06:38,338 --> 00:06:39,422 nikad nije u redu. 219 00:06:40,672 --> 00:06:42,088 A kad ti ispravi me, 220 00:06:42,088 --> 00:06:43,672 Vidim zašto jesi ispravljajući me. 221 00:06:43,672 --> 00:06:44,338 Mm-hm. 222 00:06:44,338 --> 00:06:45,589 razumijem nijansa 223 00:06:45,589 --> 00:06:47,005 a gdje sam promašio točka. 224 00:06:47,005 --> 00:06:48,422 To je jako frustrirajuće za mene. 225 00:06:48,755 --> 00:06:50,672 -Da, ja sam... - Ono što želim čuti... 226 00:06:50,672 --> 00:06:52,255 je...zašto... 227 00:06:52,255 --> 00:06:54,046 je... trenutak gdje netko 228 00:06:54,046 --> 00:06:55,797 nije samo točno... 229 00:06:55,797 --> 00:06:57,589 -Mh-hm. -ne baš kako treba... 230 00:06:57,589 --> 00:06:59,839 zašto je to tako razorno? 231 00:06:59,839 --> 00:07:01,255 To je tvoje. 232 00:07:01,255 --> 00:07:02,005 ja to ne znam to je porazno, 233 00:07:02,005 --> 00:07:03,088 Mislim da je... 234 00:07:03,088 --> 00:07:04,880 [smijeh] Vidiš, ti učinio to baš tada. 235 00:07:04,880 --> 00:07:06,463 "Razorno" nije sasvim prava riječ, 236 00:07:06,463 --> 00:07:07,921 a ti ćeš ispraviti riječ razorna 237 00:07:07,921 --> 00:07:09,797 a ne vidiš ono "poražavajuće"... 238 00:07:09,797 --> 00:07:10,880 možda, kao... 239 00:07:10,880 --> 00:07:12,005 Pa, ona je... 240 00:07:12,005 --> 00:07:13,630 To je jednostavno ne...poražavajuće. 241 00:07:13,630 --> 00:07:15,630 To nije ispravno upotreba te riječi... 242 00:07:15,963 --> 00:07:17,297 u bilo kojoj drugoj raditi-- 243 00:07:17,297 --> 00:07:18,839 Mislim, uh, osim ako ti si hiperboličan 244 00:07:18,839 --> 00:07:20,463 i ne znam što poanta toga bi bila. 245 00:07:20,463 --> 00:07:21,463 Ako je točka bilo je jasno -- 246 00:07:21,463 --> 00:07:23,046 Nisam bio hiperboličan. 247 00:07:23,046 --> 00:07:24,755 zapravo jesam pod pretpostavkom da... 248 00:07:24,755 --> 00:07:25,963 na nekim -- 249 00:07:25,963 --> 00:07:27,672 na neki način -- 250 00:07:28,297 --> 00:07:29,963 Što kažete na "duboko nezgodno?" 251 00:07:29,963 --> 00:07:31,672 Ne, ne mislim to je nezgodno. 252 00:07:31,672 --> 00:07:32,839 Mislim da ima mnogo više - 253 00:07:32,839 --> 00:07:33,963 -Jesam. - emocionalno... 254 00:07:34,921 --> 00:07:36,505 ovaj... 255 00:07:36,505 --> 00:07:37,422 [uzdahne] 256 00:07:37,714 --> 00:07:39,547 -pod...laganjem... -Mm-hm. 257 00:07:39,547 --> 00:07:40,463 struktura ovome. 258 00:07:41,589 --> 00:07:42,005 U redu. 259 00:07:42,630 --> 00:07:44,130 Kako možemo brzo... 260 00:07:44,505 --> 00:07:46,213 odrediti... da li to -- 261 00:07:46,213 --> 00:07:47,046 to je istina ili ne? 262 00:07:47,046 --> 00:07:49,755 Možete se zapitati ako ti... 263 00:07:50,505 --> 00:07:52,463 želite uzeti nešto onoga što govorim 264 00:07:52,463 --> 00:07:53,880 da vidim je li korisno tebi... 265 00:07:53,880 --> 00:07:54,672 u redu 266 00:07:54,672 --> 00:07:55,547 ili ako želite sparingirati sa mnom. 267 00:07:55,547 --> 00:07:57,213 Ako ne želiš sparing sa mnom, 268 00:07:57,213 --> 00:07:58,213 mi ne moram... 269 00:07:58,213 --> 00:07:59,380 raspravljati o točnost, 270 00:07:59,380 --> 00:08:00,589 samo imamo vidjeti... 271 00:08:00,589 --> 00:08:01,547 ako je korisno... 272 00:08:01,963 --> 00:08:03,005 ono što govorim, 273 00:08:03,005 --> 00:08:04,255 da li je točno ili ne. 274 00:08:04,547 --> 00:08:05,797 ne znam kako to učiniti. 275 00:08:06,171 --> 00:08:08,005 ja to ne znam ikada sam bio... 276 00:08:08,672 --> 00:08:11,755 razorena u bilo kojoj prethodni događaj 277 00:08:11,755 --> 00:08:12,797 kad ono dogodilo se... 278 00:08:13,130 --> 00:08:14,213 uključujući moju rođendan. 279 00:08:14,213 --> 00:08:15,380 Nisam osjetio razoren. 280 00:08:15,672 --> 00:08:17,005 Rekli ste "razočaran". 281 00:08:17,297 --> 00:08:18,338 Bio sam razočaran... 282 00:08:18,338 --> 00:08:19,839 Dobro, idi s tim. 283 00:08:20,589 --> 00:08:21,088 Tamo. 284 00:08:21,380 --> 00:08:22,463 Proboj. 285 00:08:23,505 --> 00:08:24,422 [uzdahne] 286 00:08:27,463 --> 00:08:30,547 ♪ znatiželjno vrijeme glazba♪ 287 00:08:30,547 --> 00:08:32,547 [nerazumljivo šaputanje] 288 00:08:32,963 --> 00:08:34,213 [šaputanje] u redu 289 00:08:35,005 --> 00:08:36,046 [uzdahne] 290 00:08:38,046 --> 00:08:39,130 Što vidite? 291 00:08:40,088 --> 00:08:42,380 ♪♪♪ 292 00:08:44,380 --> 00:08:45,547 [Žena] To je ptica na znak. 293 00:08:47,797 --> 00:08:49,547 Ali znak je pokvaren. 294 00:08:51,714 --> 00:08:53,589 vidio sam i ptica, 295 00:08:53,589 --> 00:08:56,213 hm, ali vidio sam da je to sjekira 296 00:08:56,213 --> 00:08:57,714 pokušavajući izrezati ga. 297 00:08:59,213 --> 00:09:00,714 vidim a osoba... 298 00:09:04,046 --> 00:09:06,171 nad drugim osoba. 299 00:09:06,880 --> 00:09:07,797 To je zanimljivo. 300 00:09:07,797 --> 00:09:09,213 Vidim pticu. 301 00:09:10,005 --> 00:09:11,088 huh 302 00:09:13,505 --> 00:09:16,422 ♪♪♪ 303 00:09:17,714 --> 00:09:19,630 [Orna] Dakle, imamo sat vremena zajedno danas. 304 00:09:19,630 --> 00:09:20,297 U redu. 305 00:09:20,297 --> 00:09:21,630 Da vidimo što možemo učiniti. 306 00:09:21,630 --> 00:09:22,589 -U redu. -U redu? 307 00:09:23,088 --> 00:09:23,755 Pa reci mi. 308 00:09:24,213 --> 00:09:24,880 pričaj sa mnom. 309 00:09:25,589 --> 00:09:26,380 zašto si ovdje 310 00:09:26,380 --> 00:09:27,755 Što želite raditi na? 311 00:09:28,547 --> 00:09:30,255 Mi smo polarni suprotnosti. 312 00:09:31,297 --> 00:09:32,380 Ali to... 313 00:09:32,380 --> 00:09:33,422 u početku... 314 00:09:33,422 --> 00:09:35,422 - bilo je fantastično -- -Mm-hm. 315 00:09:35,422 --> 00:09:36,297 jer... 316 00:09:36,589 --> 00:09:38,171 umirio se moja buka 317 00:09:38,171 --> 00:09:39,297 i probudio sam se njega gore. 318 00:09:39,589 --> 00:09:40,505 [smijeh] 319 00:09:40,505 --> 00:09:41,797 Tako da je upalilo van. 320 00:09:42,088 --> 00:09:42,921 Dakle... 321 00:09:42,921 --> 00:09:44,338 Smirio se tvoja buka 322 00:09:44,338 --> 00:09:45,422 i probudio si se njega gore. 323 00:09:45,422 --> 00:09:46,088 Da. 324 00:09:46,088 --> 00:09:47,130 To je prekrasno. 325 00:09:47,130 --> 00:09:48,755 - Dakle, bilo je savršeno. -Aha. 326 00:09:48,755 --> 00:09:50,380 Hm, premotaj unaprijed... 327 00:09:50,380 --> 00:09:51,130 Mm-hm. 328 00:09:52,005 --> 00:09:54,630 mi -- više ne govorimo isti jezik. 329 00:09:55,171 --> 00:09:56,297 Hm... 330 00:09:56,297 --> 00:09:57,630 On krivo razumije... 331 00:09:58,046 --> 00:09:59,422 ja, i ja... 332 00:09:59,672 --> 00:10:00,505 totalno... 333 00:10:00,505 --> 00:10:01,797 krivo razumjeti njega. 334 00:10:01,797 --> 00:10:04,005 Wh-- koji -- uh, na koji način? 335 00:10:04,005 --> 00:10:05,839 On će me umiriti većinu vremena 336 00:10:05,839 --> 00:10:07,046 samo tako da... 337 00:10:07,046 --> 00:10:07,755 on ne... 338 00:10:08,255 --> 00:10:10,297 morati angažirati u razgovoru 339 00:10:10,297 --> 00:10:11,255 jer on misli... 340 00:10:11,255 --> 00:10:12,797 Ja ću vikati ili vrištati 341 00:10:12,797 --> 00:10:13,797 -ili što god-- -Mislim 342 00:10:13,797 --> 00:10:14,963 vikat ćeš i vrištati? 343 00:10:15,380 --> 00:10:16,797 -ili -- - Ja sam intenzivna osoba 344 00:10:16,797 --> 00:10:18,130 i to je način Ja govorim. 345 00:10:18,130 --> 00:10:19,046 U redu. 346 00:10:19,046 --> 00:10:20,255 -Uh -- -Ali obično završi 347 00:10:20,255 --> 00:10:21,463 s tobom da vičeš i vrišteći. 348 00:10:21,797 --> 00:10:23,963 Možda bismo trebali ući par primjera. 349 00:10:24,463 --> 00:10:26,797 Nedavna eskalacija ili -- 350 00:10:26,797 --> 00:10:28,297 ili neki, kao, uh -- 351 00:10:28,297 --> 00:10:30,297 eskalacija koja osjećao sam se kao "Uh, 352 00:10:30,297 --> 00:10:31,255 evo nas opet. 353 00:10:31,255 --> 00:10:32,963 Ovo mi radimo ta stvar." 354 00:10:34,088 --> 00:10:34,921 poslao sam mu... 355 00:10:34,921 --> 00:10:35,839 jer ja nisam dopustio da ga nazove 356 00:10:35,839 --> 00:10:36,755 dok je on na poslu, 357 00:10:36,755 --> 00:10:37,839 pa šaljem poruku on... 358 00:10:38,714 --> 00:10:40,088 i poslala sam mu poruku, 359 00:10:40,088 --> 00:10:41,005 i rekao sam, um -- 360 00:10:41,005 --> 00:10:42,213 Sada dobivamo u neke -- 361 00:10:42,213 --> 00:10:43,839 Nemoj -- nemoj reci to tako. 362 00:10:44,255 --> 00:10:45,171 I tako -- 363 00:10:45,171 --> 00:10:46,338 Jer ako nisi dozvoljeno zvati 364 00:10:46,338 --> 00:10:47,589 razbiješ to pravilo. 365 00:10:48,005 --> 00:10:49,297 Jer ti zoveš cijelo vrijeme. 366 00:10:50,213 --> 00:10:52,005 Daj joj razlog zašto to kažeš. 367 00:10:52,005 --> 00:10:53,672 Zato što ne želiš zovem te na posao -- 368 00:10:53,672 --> 00:10:55,380 Zašto te ne želim zoveš me na posao? 369 00:10:56,046 --> 00:10:58,463 Jer posao je vrlo važno za vas. 370 00:10:58,463 --> 00:11:00,213 Ali zašto je... uvoz-- 371 00:11:00,213 --> 00:11:02,589 Zašto je... to Ja... kažem tebi? 372 00:11:02,589 --> 00:11:04,130 Ti reci njezino zašto. 373 00:11:04,130 --> 00:11:05,130 Ti reci njezino zašto. 374 00:11:05,130 --> 00:11:05,880 jer -- 375 00:11:06,672 --> 00:11:08,005 Ona će nazvati 20 puta dnevno. 376 00:11:08,005 --> 00:11:08,755 -Mm-hm. -Mm-hm. 377 00:11:08,755 --> 00:11:09,589 -U redu? -Mm. 378 00:11:09,589 --> 00:11:11,088 I očekuje da pokupim 379 00:11:11,088 --> 00:11:12,463 - 20 puta. -Mm-hm. 380 00:11:12,463 --> 00:11:13,755 I svaki jednokratno, 381 00:11:13,755 --> 00:11:15,213 nije ništa važno. 382 00:11:15,213 --> 00:11:16,839 A ako se ne javim taj telefon -- 383 00:11:16,839 --> 00:11:18,422 Pa, valjda to to je važno 384 00:11:18,422 --> 00:11:20,672 samo u smislu uspostavljanje veze. 385 00:11:22,380 --> 00:11:23,839 Upravo smo razgovarali. 386 00:11:23,839 --> 00:11:24,880 Mm-hm. 387 00:11:24,880 --> 00:11:26,755 Pa ljudi jesu različite potrebe za, poput -- 388 00:11:26,755 --> 00:11:27,714 Ali imam posla. 389 00:11:27,714 --> 00:11:28,630 Da, da. 390 00:11:28,630 --> 00:11:30,213 -Mm-hm. -Ja-- Nije McDo-- 391 00:11:30,213 --> 00:11:31,213 ja ne radim na, kao, 392 00:11:31,213 --> 00:11:32,714 - Wendy's ili tako nešto. -Da, da. 393 00:11:32,714 --> 00:11:34,672 Onda kada -- kada napokon me je dobila... 394 00:11:35,046 --> 00:11:36,297 ovako je ona pozdravlja me: 395 00:11:36,297 --> 00:11:37,046 [ljutito] "Gdje jesi li bio?" 396 00:11:37,046 --> 00:11:38,046 Mm-hm. 397 00:11:38,921 --> 00:11:40,130 [ljutito] "Što jesi li radio?" 398 00:11:40,463 --> 00:11:41,880 Ja kažem, "Dušo, na poslu sam." 399 00:11:41,880 --> 00:11:43,547 [ljutito] "Zašto ne javljaš li se na telefon?" 400 00:11:43,547 --> 00:11:44,714 "U redu, sad si me dobio. 401 00:11:44,714 --> 00:11:46,046 Što je hitno?" 402 00:11:46,046 --> 00:11:46,797 [Orna] Mm-hm. 403 00:11:46,797 --> 00:11:47,839 "Zašto nije odgovorite vi 404 00:11:47,839 --> 00:11:48,380 kada sam nazvao?" 405 00:11:48,380 --> 00:11:49,547 „Zato što sam bio zauzet? 406 00:11:49,547 --> 00:11:50,547 -Možda? -Mm-hm. 407 00:11:50,547 --> 00:11:51,505 Daj mi korist sumnje. 408 00:11:51,505 --> 00:11:52,547 na poslu sam, dušo. 409 00:11:53,005 --> 00:11:55,422 Je li moguće da sam mogao bili zauzeti? 410 00:11:55,422 --> 00:11:56,921 Ne ignoriram tvoji pozivi." 411 00:11:56,921 --> 00:11:59,505 Što mislite o tome što Desean kaže? 412 00:12:00,297 --> 00:12:02,255 Mislim da je Deseanova... 413 00:12:02,672 --> 00:12:03,547 uh... 414 00:12:04,005 --> 00:12:06,338 glavna stvar u životu je posao. 415 00:12:06,589 --> 00:12:07,547 Mm-hm. 416 00:12:07,547 --> 00:12:08,422 Znate, moglo bi biti 9:30 417 00:12:08,422 --> 00:12:09,547 i on je na njegov telefon. 418 00:12:09,547 --> 00:12:10,963 "Što radiš?" "Posao. E-pošta." 419 00:12:10,963 --> 00:12:11,839 Što god. 420 00:12:11,839 --> 00:12:13,255 što radiš, Desean? 421 00:12:13,255 --> 00:12:14,422 Ja sam osiguranje posrednik. 422 00:12:14,422 --> 00:12:15,255 [Orna] Mm-hm. 423 00:12:15,255 --> 00:12:16,171 znaš... 424 00:12:16,171 --> 00:12:18,338 Radio sam u mjesta gdje... 425 00:12:18,338 --> 00:12:21,338 Direktori se javljaju na telefon za svoje žene. 426 00:12:21,338 --> 00:12:22,380 Nisam CEO, 427 00:12:22,380 --> 00:12:24,380 pa možda kad Postajem CEO, 428 00:12:24,380 --> 00:12:26,547 - onda možete početi -- - Moja poanta je da... 429 00:12:26,547 --> 00:12:28,422 postoje ljudi koji imaju... 430 00:12:28,422 --> 00:12:29,755 veći poslovi... 431 00:12:30,088 --> 00:12:30,880 tko... 432 00:12:31,672 --> 00:12:32,547 - brinuti se za svoje žene -- -Mm-hm. 433 00:12:32,547 --> 00:12:33,463 ili njihov značajan drugo 434 00:12:33,463 --> 00:12:35,547 ili što već to jest, ali... 435 00:12:35,547 --> 00:12:37,255 za mene, on je previše zaposlen. 436 00:12:37,630 --> 00:12:39,422 Ustat ćemo, točno? 437 00:12:39,422 --> 00:12:40,463 spremite se za posao. 438 00:12:41,297 --> 00:12:42,880 -U vlaku sam. -Mm-hm. 439 00:12:42,880 --> 00:12:43,797 Nabavite SMS. 440 00:12:44,297 --> 00:12:45,338 "Znaš, 441 00:12:45,338 --> 00:12:47,046 Razmišljao sam o nečemu." 442 00:12:47,422 --> 00:12:48,297 A ovo će... 443 00:12:48,297 --> 00:12:49,505 ovo će se nastaviti dok ne budemo na poslu. 444 00:12:49,505 --> 00:12:50,547 Ali ona nije, ne znam, 445 00:12:50,547 --> 00:12:52,130 kao, govoreći ti njezin san. 446 00:12:52,130 --> 00:12:53,630 Ona -- ona govori o nečemu 447 00:12:53,630 --> 00:12:54,630 - između to dvoje -- -Moglo bi biti to. 448 00:12:54,630 --> 00:12:55,630 Moglo bi biti taj. 449 00:12:55,630 --> 00:12:56,589 Moglo bi biti samo -- samo -- 450 00:12:56,589 --> 00:12:58,005 Moglo bi biti, "Znaš... 451 00:12:58,005 --> 00:12:59,046 -"Želim razgovarati s tobom." -Imao sam taj čudan dre--" 452 00:12:59,046 --> 00:12:59,963 Bilo mi je ovo čudno dre--" Da. Mm-hm. 453 00:12:59,963 --> 00:13:01,297 A ja kažem, "Dušo, može li ovo pričekati 454 00:13:01,297 --> 00:13:02,672 dok ne dođem kući?" 455 00:13:02,672 --> 00:13:05,046 dođem kući i n-- ništa. 456 00:13:05,046 --> 00:13:05,963 Jer sam izgubio kamata. 457 00:13:05,963 --> 00:13:06,797 i onda, Ja sam kao... 458 00:13:06,797 --> 00:13:07,463 Ne želim razgovarati tebi sada. 459 00:13:07,463 --> 00:13:08,547 „Sve to stvari 460 00:13:08,547 --> 00:13:10,297 koje ste htjeli da legne na mene 461 00:13:10,297 --> 00:13:11,338 kad sam bio na poslu 462 00:13:11,338 --> 00:13:12,797 -i stvarno nisam mogla... -"Gdje je?" 463 00:13:12,797 --> 00:13:13,589 gdje je 464 00:13:13,589 --> 00:13:14,422 Sada ti imaj me, 465 00:13:14,422 --> 00:13:15,338 sada jesam zaručen, 466 00:13:15,338 --> 00:13:16,297 sada želim... 467 00:13:16,297 --> 00:13:17,463 baviti se time, 468 00:13:17,463 --> 00:13:18,921 ali ne želiš da mi ga sada daš -- 469 00:13:18,921 --> 00:13:19,755 Ali ti kažeš 470 00:13:19,755 --> 00:13:21,963 jer ti si već osjećam... 471 00:13:21,963 --> 00:13:23,005 povrijeđen do tada? 472 00:13:23,505 --> 00:13:24,672 osjećam se kao... 473 00:13:25,088 --> 00:13:26,255 -- taj... 474 00:13:27,088 --> 00:13:29,005 ono što treba željeti dijeliti to umrlo. 475 00:13:29,839 --> 00:13:31,839 Mislim da je njezina ideja o... 476 00:13:32,672 --> 00:13:33,672 -partnerstvo... -Mm-hm. 477 00:13:33,672 --> 00:13:34,505 je... 478 00:13:34,505 --> 00:13:35,839 "Učini kako ti kažem, 479 00:13:35,839 --> 00:13:37,797 kad kažem, kako ja to kažem. 480 00:13:38,380 --> 00:13:40,213 Želim napraviti sretna je, ali... 481 00:13:40,213 --> 00:13:41,963 Prešao sam na stvar gdje sam baš kao, 482 00:13:41,963 --> 00:13:43,422 “To je nemoguće da te usrećim." 483 00:13:45,797 --> 00:13:48,630 ♪ žlijebljenje funk glazba♪ 484 00:13:55,422 --> 00:14:00,046 ♪ govoreći strani jezik jezik♪ 485 00:14:10,547 --> 00:14:12,213 [nerazumljivo] 486 00:14:12,213 --> 00:14:13,213 ja znam 487 00:14:13,213 --> 00:14:16,046 ♪ govoreći strani jezik jezik♪ 488 00:14:28,547 --> 00:14:29,880 [nerazumljivo brbljanje] 489 00:14:29,880 --> 00:14:30,755 [Orna] Bok. Bok. 490 00:14:30,755 --> 00:14:31,839 Zdravo. hej 491 00:14:32,255 --> 00:14:33,046 uđi. 492 00:14:33,714 --> 00:14:34,547 -Super. -Super. 493 00:14:37,839 --> 00:14:39,755 Uvijek smo razgovarali o želji za djecom. 494 00:14:39,755 --> 00:14:40,589 Da. 495 00:14:40,589 --> 00:14:41,630 Kao, od našeg treći spoj 496 00:14:41,630 --> 00:14:42,797 bilo je uključeno stol. 497 00:14:42,797 --> 00:14:43,921 A onda... 498 00:14:43,921 --> 00:14:45,921 nekako gotovo proteklih nekoliko godina, 499 00:14:45,921 --> 00:14:47,589 bilo je vrlo posvuda 500 00:14:47,589 --> 00:14:48,797 što se tiče vremenske linije. 501 00:14:48,797 --> 00:14:50,171 -i -- -Na primjer? 502 00:14:50,171 --> 00:14:50,963 Bilo bi... 503 00:14:50,963 --> 00:14:51,880 prije pet godina... 504 00:14:52,589 --> 00:14:53,547 kao, par godine prije. 505 00:14:53,547 --> 00:14:55,255 -Mm-hm. -A onda... 506 00:14:55,255 --> 00:14:56,171 šest mjeseci... 507 00:14:56,422 --> 00:14:57,130 kasnije... 508 00:14:58,088 --> 00:14:58,963 Sarah bi bila kao, "Spreman sam, želim... 509 00:14:58,963 --> 00:15:00,297 - Želim djecu." -Mm-hm. 510 00:15:00,297 --> 00:15:01,380 A onda bi... 511 00:15:01,380 --> 00:15:02,505 promijeniti ag-- mislim... 512 00:15:02,505 --> 00:15:03,547 vratilo se i dalje puno. 513 00:15:03,547 --> 00:15:04,672 Unutarnji sukob. 514 00:15:04,672 --> 00:15:06,046 -Naravno. -Ne znam. 515 00:15:06,297 --> 00:15:07,755 Svi ga navijamo ovdje vani. 516 00:15:07,755 --> 00:15:08,714 Nitko ne zna. 517 00:15:09,880 --> 00:15:11,380 [Orna] A to je, za tebe... 518 00:15:11,755 --> 00:15:13,921 zbunjujuće, možda ludovanje? 519 00:15:13,921 --> 00:15:15,338 Vrlo -- vrlo zbunjujuće. 520 00:15:15,338 --> 00:15:16,255 [Orna] Mm-hm. 521 00:15:16,255 --> 00:15:17,547 Imali smo... 522 00:15:17,547 --> 00:15:18,755 kasnija vremenska linija... 523 00:15:19,422 --> 00:15:20,589 i to samo nekako, kao... 524 00:15:21,547 --> 00:15:22,921 ubrzalo se... 525 00:15:23,505 --> 00:15:25,755 osjećalo se kao, bez mog unosa. 526 00:15:26,046 --> 00:15:29,005 Dakle, što vas je natjeralo želim ići brže... 527 00:15:29,297 --> 00:15:31,255 i što je napravio osjećaš nevoljkost? 528 00:15:31,255 --> 00:15:32,088 [Lauren] Mm-hm. 529 00:15:32,630 --> 00:15:34,963 Za mene je to bilo... 530 00:15:34,963 --> 00:15:37,589 još uvijek vremenski period intenzivnog... 531 00:15:37,839 --> 00:15:38,963 nestabilnost. 532 00:15:39,255 --> 00:15:40,088 Mm-hm. 533 00:15:40,422 --> 00:15:41,171 Ja sam trans 534 00:15:41,171 --> 00:15:42,921 i počeo sam moj prijelaz 535 00:15:42,921 --> 00:15:45,297 - kad sam imao 27 godina. -Mm-hm. 536 00:15:45,547 --> 00:15:47,630 Mislim samo preko prošla godina 537 00:15:47,630 --> 00:15:48,963 Mislim da jesam stvarno... 538 00:15:49,672 --> 00:15:51,046 ući u moj... 539 00:15:51,046 --> 00:15:52,630 -sebe, i -- -Mm-hm. 540 00:15:52,630 --> 00:15:54,088 osjetili... stabilan... 541 00:15:54,380 --> 00:15:55,463 unutar... 542 00:15:55,963 --> 00:15:57,755 moj osobni identitet -- 543 00:15:57,755 --> 00:15:58,963 -Da. -I... 544 00:15:58,963 --> 00:16:00,213 wh-- gdje ja sam... 545 00:16:00,213 --> 00:16:02,463 -at kao čovjek. -Mm-hm. 546 00:16:02,463 --> 00:16:03,463 I tako... 547 00:16:03,463 --> 00:16:04,921 imati dijete... 548 00:16:05,714 --> 00:16:07,046 Može destabilizirati taj. 549 00:16:07,046 --> 00:16:08,171 Bi li ch-- promijeniti -- 550 00:16:08,171 --> 00:16:09,505 odjednom, ja sam mama... 551 00:16:09,505 --> 00:16:10,672 [Orna] Mm-hm. 552 00:16:10,672 --> 00:16:13,171 A ja sam upravo... kao... 553 00:16:14,380 --> 00:16:15,589 stvarno postati žena. 554 00:16:15,589 --> 00:16:16,630 [Orna] Mm-hm. 555 00:16:17,005 --> 00:16:18,755 i... [gutljaji] 556 00:16:19,797 --> 00:16:21,130 to je bilo zastrašujuće. 557 00:16:21,130 --> 00:16:21,839 Da. 558 00:16:22,839 --> 00:16:24,422 Imati dijete je, kao... 559 00:16:25,213 --> 00:16:26,589 jedina stvar koja 560 00:16:26,589 --> 00:16:27,463 Ja sam znao u mom životu 561 00:16:27,463 --> 00:16:28,380 da želim... 562 00:16:28,963 --> 00:16:30,380 - sigurno. -Mm-hm. 563 00:16:30,380 --> 00:16:31,839 Znam da želim dijete, 564 00:16:31,839 --> 00:16:33,130 Ja sam znao cijeli moj život. 565 00:16:33,589 --> 00:16:36,171 I tako kad ona donio sve ove... 566 00:16:36,921 --> 00:16:38,005 zabrinutost... 567 00:16:39,338 --> 00:16:40,171 ja... 568 00:16:42,422 --> 00:16:43,505 potpuno smrznuo se... 569 00:16:45,797 --> 00:16:48,046 i samo sam osjetio 570 00:16:48,046 --> 00:16:49,672 potpuno uništeno... 571 00:16:50,297 --> 00:16:52,213 jer se osjećalo kao što je bila 572 00:16:52,213 --> 00:16:53,505 uzimajući ovo daleko od mene. 573 00:16:53,505 --> 00:16:54,213 Mm-hm. 574 00:16:54,547 --> 00:16:55,505 i... 575 00:16:55,755 --> 00:16:58,839 Osjećao sam se kao njezine brige bile valjane... 576 00:16:59,171 --> 00:17:00,130 ali... 577 00:17:00,130 --> 00:17:02,046 nisu bili dovoljno važno 578 00:17:02,046 --> 00:17:04,255 oduzeti onaj stvar koju želim... 579 00:17:04,255 --> 00:17:05,130 u ovom životu. 580 00:17:06,046 --> 00:17:08,672 I znao sam -- znao sam da nije govorila 581 00:17:08,672 --> 00:17:11,005 "Ne, ne možemo imati djecu." 582 00:17:11,005 --> 00:17:13,046 Znao sam da ona govorio "čekaj"... 583 00:17:13,797 --> 00:17:16,422 ali njezine brige osjećao sam se kao... 584 00:17:17,255 --> 00:17:19,338 zabrinutosti da ste imat ću zauvijek. 585 00:17:20,005 --> 00:17:21,547 A ako zadržite otpustiti te brige -- 586 00:17:21,547 --> 00:17:22,505 Ali ako... 587 00:17:22,505 --> 00:17:24,171 Ali -- ali na neki način... 588 00:17:25,797 --> 00:17:28,422 kakav god argument bio praviš u svom umu, 589 00:17:28,422 --> 00:17:29,422 nisi mogao -- 590 00:17:29,422 --> 00:17:31,880 zbog intenziteta po tvojoj želji... 591 00:17:32,630 --> 00:17:35,880 niste mogli zadržati na umu Laurenin... 592 00:17:37,171 --> 00:17:39,088 položaj kao valjan. 593 00:17:40,046 --> 00:17:42,422 I to se jednostavno osjetilo prijeteći... 594 00:17:43,589 --> 00:17:45,088 svoju privrženost na ovo... 595 00:17:45,338 --> 00:17:46,422 potencijalna beba. 596 00:17:46,422 --> 00:17:48,297 Da, nije osjećati se valjanim. 597 00:17:48,297 --> 00:17:50,589 Da, nisi mogao drži je valjanom. 598 00:17:50,839 --> 00:17:52,171 Ti si to rekao osjećao se sebičnim. 599 00:17:52,672 --> 00:17:53,839 Osjećalo se sebičan 600 00:17:53,839 --> 00:17:55,839 i još uvijek to mislim zvuči sebično. [smijeh] 601 00:17:56,255 --> 00:17:58,088 Mislim da oni zabrinutost je opravdana, 602 00:17:58,088 --> 00:17:59,921 ali se ne osjeća dovoljno valjano da, kao, 603 00:17:59,921 --> 00:18:01,171 šutni ga dolje cesta... 604 00:18:01,171 --> 00:18:02,088 dalje. 605 00:18:03,171 --> 00:18:05,380 I tako, u toj borbi... 606 00:18:05,714 --> 00:18:07,463 Mislim trajalo je kao tri dana. 607 00:18:07,463 --> 00:18:08,839 -Mm-hm. - Da, bilo je prilično brutalno. 608 00:18:08,839 --> 00:18:10,463 -i -- -Enh, gledaj, ovo je... 609 00:18:10,463 --> 00:18:13,547 ovo je takva stvar to je stvarno teško. 610 00:18:13,547 --> 00:18:14,255 Da. 611 00:18:15,088 --> 00:18:16,297 Mislim, ove nekako drugačije... 612 00:18:16,297 --> 00:18:17,338 vremenske crte 613 00:18:17,338 --> 00:18:19,255 na nešto tako važno... 614 00:18:20,213 --> 00:18:21,463 to je a težak jedan. 615 00:18:23,297 --> 00:18:24,547 - Da, bilo je prilično strašno. -gdje si 616 00:18:27,921 --> 00:18:30,130 [plače] Samo osjećam kako Osjećao sam se tog dana. 617 00:18:30,130 --> 00:18:31,338 [Orna] Što je... 618 00:18:31,797 --> 00:18:32,839 kao da je sve izgubljeno? 619 00:18:32,839 --> 00:18:34,255 Kao, tako slomljena srca. 620 00:18:35,130 --> 00:18:37,130 I, u retrospektiva... 621 00:18:37,839 --> 00:18:38,963 Shvaćam, kao, 622 00:18:38,963 --> 00:18:40,589 Klizao sam u depresiju -- 623 00:18:40,589 --> 00:18:41,463 [Orna] Mm-hm. 624 00:18:41,463 --> 00:18:42,963 i tražio sam za bilo što 625 00:18:42,963 --> 00:18:43,963 pogledati proslijediti prema. 626 00:18:44,338 --> 00:18:46,338 Kao što će beba nekako te spasiti 627 00:18:46,338 --> 00:18:47,589 iz depresija. 628 00:18:47,921 --> 00:18:49,755 I znam da je to takav klišej, 629 00:18:49,755 --> 00:18:51,130 ali da, samo planiranje. 630 00:18:51,130 --> 00:18:52,380 -Nije klišej. -Samo znati 631 00:18:52,380 --> 00:18:53,755 -da dolazi... -Da. 632 00:18:53,755 --> 00:18:55,380 samo znajući da imam da držim svoja sranja na okupu 633 00:18:55,380 --> 00:18:57,046 tako da mogu biti tamo za nekoga. 634 00:18:57,046 --> 00:18:58,046 Da. 635 00:18:58,463 --> 00:19:00,130 I osjećam se kao bila je... 636 00:19:00,672 --> 00:19:01,963 ometanje mog... 637 00:19:02,380 --> 00:19:04,005 -iscjeljivanje. -Mm-hm. 638 00:19:04,005 --> 00:19:05,672 Osjećao sam se kao ogroman izdaju. 639 00:19:06,839 --> 00:19:08,297 A ja samo osjećao sam se kao... 640 00:19:08,297 --> 00:19:10,505 ako ćeš me zaustaviti od kretanja naprijed... 641 00:19:11,005 --> 00:19:12,672 Ne znam kako ovo se može nastaviti. 642 00:19:14,963 --> 00:19:16,921 [šmrcne] Želim neka tkiva. 643 00:19:16,921 --> 00:19:18,463 Bila je tu kutija tkiva... 644 00:19:19,839 --> 00:19:20,630 [tiho] Uh-oh. 645 00:19:20,630 --> 00:19:21,380 Oh, ne. 646 00:19:21,380 --> 00:19:22,130 ne znam gdje je. 647 00:19:22,130 --> 00:19:23,755 Jeste li upravo pogoršati? 648 00:19:23,755 --> 00:19:25,005 -Da. -U redu je. 649 00:19:25,005 --> 00:19:26,088 -Ovaj... - Žao mi je. 650 00:19:26,505 --> 00:19:27,380 u redu je 651 00:19:27,380 --> 00:19:28,171 nije me briga. 652 00:19:28,171 --> 00:19:29,338 Samo imaš puno toga na tebi. 653 00:19:32,547 --> 00:19:33,505 Što imaju jesi gotov 654 00:19:33,505 --> 00:19:34,755 -[smijeh] [šmrcne] -Bolje je. 655 00:19:35,088 --> 00:19:36,005 -Hvala. -Tamo. 656 00:19:36,005 --> 00:19:37,380 kako si osjećaj, Lauren, 657 00:19:37,380 --> 00:19:39,046 o čemu Sarah govori? 658 00:19:39,880 --> 00:19:40,589 mislim... 659 00:19:41,422 --> 00:19:44,046 Ja... nisam išao samo reći "Da". 660 00:19:44,046 --> 00:19:45,547 Nisam išla samo donijeti... 661 00:19:45,921 --> 00:19:47,505 dijete u ovaj svijet... 662 00:19:47,880 --> 00:19:49,255 popraviti ovo. 663 00:19:49,255 --> 00:19:49,839 Pravo. 664 00:19:50,630 --> 00:19:51,672 neću... 665 00:19:52,171 --> 00:19:53,714 dovesti dijete popraviti nešto. 666 00:19:53,714 --> 00:19:54,547 Mm-hm. 667 00:19:57,213 --> 00:19:59,505 ♪ brza akustika drndanje♪ 668 00:20:15,088 --> 00:20:16,839 ♪prebijanje prstiju pojačava♪ 669 00:20:23,255 --> 00:20:23,839 Bok, draga. 670 00:20:25,755 --> 00:20:26,213 [poljubac] 671 00:20:26,463 --> 00:20:27,338 Drago mi je da te vidim. 672 00:20:27,338 --> 00:20:28,422 Drago mi je da te vidim. 673 00:20:28,921 --> 00:20:30,380 ♪♪♪ 674 00:20:31,422 --> 00:20:32,755 [Orna] Nisam mogla spavati sinoć. 675 00:20:35,005 --> 00:20:38,005 Stvarno porazno osjećaj odgovornosti. 676 00:20:39,921 --> 00:20:41,672 Pitam se više o -- 677 00:20:42,130 --> 00:20:44,088 država, tvoja emocionalno stanje, 678 00:20:44,088 --> 00:20:45,380 tvoje mentalno stanje... 679 00:20:46,463 --> 00:20:48,046 kao što osjećaš tim putem. 680 00:20:48,046 --> 00:20:49,380 Možda ti može razraditi. 681 00:20:49,755 --> 00:20:50,921 mislio sam... 682 00:20:50,921 --> 00:20:52,630 koliko je staviti na... 683 00:20:52,630 --> 00:20:53,672 pojam... 684 00:20:53,672 --> 00:20:54,755 par. 685 00:20:54,755 --> 00:20:55,921 Znate, i kao terapeut za parove, 686 00:20:55,921 --> 00:20:57,130 Ja sam, kao... 687 00:20:57,130 --> 00:20:58,130 vjerujem u to. 688 00:20:58,130 --> 00:20:59,213 vjerujem da, konačno, 689 00:20:59,213 --> 00:21:01,338 to je dobra stvar za većinu ljudi. 690 00:21:01,672 --> 00:21:02,589 -Mm-hm. - Ne za svakoga, 691 00:21:02,589 --> 00:21:03,422 ali... 692 00:21:04,630 --> 00:21:07,380 Ali sam i ljubazan svjestan... 693 00:21:09,005 --> 00:21:10,755 granica od... 694 00:21:10,755 --> 00:21:12,255 koliko može isporučiti. 695 00:21:13,547 --> 00:21:15,088 Druga osoba nikada neće biti 696 00:21:15,088 --> 00:21:16,297 ono što jesi fantaziranje 697 00:21:16,297 --> 00:21:17,338 -oni biti. -Da. 698 00:21:17,338 --> 00:21:18,963 Fantazija je uvijek ću, 699 00:21:18,963 --> 00:21:20,422 u nekom trenutku, premašiti... 700 00:21:20,755 --> 00:21:21,963 - što je tamo. -Da. 701 00:21:21,963 --> 00:21:22,963 [Orna] A onda, tu je borba. 702 00:21:22,963 --> 00:21:24,297 ♪ meko klavir♪ 703 00:21:24,297 --> 00:21:26,589 I nema ništa imati veze s onim kako se osjećam 704 00:21:26,589 --> 00:21:28,505 ili kako smo ili -- 705 00:21:28,505 --> 00:21:29,547 ili bilo koje -- to je kao -- 706 00:21:29,963 --> 00:21:31,797 uvijek se radi o što mora učiniti 707 00:21:31,797 --> 00:21:32,505 a ja sam... 708 00:21:32,755 --> 00:21:33,422 tako sit. 709 00:21:34,297 --> 00:21:35,046 Bože, ne znam zašto se dereš 710 00:21:35,046 --> 00:21:35,921 a ja ne znaj zašto -- 711 00:21:35,921 --> 00:21:37,297 Zato što je tako jebeno frustrirajuće. 712 00:21:37,297 --> 00:21:40,921 Ja nisam nikada, nikada, ikada, ikada... 713 00:21:40,921 --> 00:21:42,463 -idem u Austin -- -U redu, shvatili smo. 714 00:21:42,463 --> 00:21:43,171 Ne, nismo, 715 00:21:43,171 --> 00:21:44,338 jer nećeš pusti me da govorim. 716 00:21:44,338 --> 00:21:45,338 O moj Bože, jebi se. 717 00:21:45,338 --> 00:21:46,880 Upravo ste rekli da ja moram te slijediti 718 00:21:46,880 --> 00:21:48,297 dolje svaki mračna staza 719 00:21:48,297 --> 00:21:50,338 jer ti vjerujem i vjerujem u tebe. 720 00:21:50,338 --> 00:21:51,297 - A ako ti vjerujem... -Ne, nisam. 721 00:21:51,297 --> 00:21:52,672 -Da, jesi! -Mm-hm. 722 00:21:52,672 --> 00:21:53,547 Trebam li... 723 00:21:53,797 --> 00:21:54,755 nikad... 724 00:21:54,755 --> 00:21:56,213 učini bilo što... 725 00:21:56,547 --> 00:21:58,839 jer sam rekao ne tebi za ovu stvar? 726 00:21:58,839 --> 00:21:59,921 eto što osjeća se kao. 727 00:21:59,921 --> 00:22:01,505 To je smiješno. 728 00:22:01,963 --> 00:22:05,005 ♪ meko klavir♪ 729 00:22:08,505 --> 00:22:11,005 [Orna] Osjećam da jesam puno moći nad njima... 730 00:22:12,880 --> 00:22:14,046 pa to je malo zastrašujuće. 731 00:22:14,046 --> 00:22:15,547 -Da. - Visina odgovornosti 732 00:22:15,547 --> 00:22:16,839 Imam tamo. 733 00:22:18,963 --> 00:22:21,130 Naš posao je da... 734 00:22:21,380 --> 00:22:23,547 produbiti svoje razumijevanje njihovog... 735 00:22:24,463 --> 00:22:25,672 -dilema. -Mm-hm. 736 00:22:26,297 --> 00:22:27,505 I ništa više. 737 00:22:28,171 --> 00:22:29,630 Ne radi se o tome da treba rade na tome 738 00:22:29,630 --> 00:22:30,714 ili bi trebali odvojiti. 739 00:22:33,130 --> 00:22:34,714 Vi nemate mišljenje o tome. 740 00:22:46,755 --> 00:22:47,171 ja... 741 00:22:47,797 --> 00:22:48,672 samo osjeti... 742 00:22:48,672 --> 00:22:49,921 sit i frustriran 743 00:22:49,921 --> 00:22:51,046 i da ja -- 744 00:22:51,046 --> 00:22:52,839 ne želim radi ovo više. 745 00:22:52,839 --> 00:22:53,505 Mm-hm. 746 00:22:54,046 --> 00:22:55,130 Duboko u moje srce, kao, 747 00:22:55,130 --> 00:22:56,547 možda je i bilo daleko već otišao. 748 00:22:56,880 --> 00:22:57,547 Mm-hm. 749 00:22:58,422 --> 00:22:59,921 Znam da bih trebala uzeti... 750 00:22:59,921 --> 00:23:01,213 odgovornost za 751 00:23:01,213 --> 00:23:02,714 stvari koje radim krivo, 752 00:23:02,714 --> 00:23:03,921 ali, kao, to je ona. 753 00:23:03,921 --> 00:23:05,714 Samo se osjećam kao nikad nije sretna. 754 00:23:05,714 --> 00:23:07,213 Kao, uvijek je nešto s njom. 755 00:23:08,171 --> 00:23:10,297 To je vaš sažetak u vašem umu 756 00:23:10,297 --> 00:23:11,755 od -- zašto... 757 00:23:12,297 --> 00:23:13,422 gotov si? 758 00:23:14,422 --> 00:23:16,589 Jer hoće nikada ne biti sretan? 759 00:23:17,255 --> 00:23:18,380 Ukratko, da 760 00:23:19,088 --> 00:23:20,422 gdje si 761 00:23:22,797 --> 00:23:25,213 [drhtanje glasa] Dakle, kad ti kaže... 762 00:23:26,088 --> 00:23:27,921 to, oh, zapravo se radi o 763 00:23:27,921 --> 00:23:29,463 ja ne biti sretan -- 764 00:23:29,463 --> 00:23:30,088 Mm-hm. 765 00:23:30,839 --> 00:23:32,005 postoji razlog za to. 766 00:23:32,005 --> 00:23:33,547 Nije zato ja sam luda 767 00:23:33,547 --> 00:23:34,213 Mm-hm. 768 00:23:35,380 --> 00:23:36,297 To je zato što 769 00:23:36,297 --> 00:23:37,630 postoji temelj 770 00:23:37,630 --> 00:23:39,005 od govoreći jedna stvar, 771 00:23:39,005 --> 00:23:40,338 a zatim radeći druga stvar. 772 00:23:40,338 --> 00:23:40,963 Mm-hm. 773 00:23:40,963 --> 00:23:41,505 A to je... 774 00:23:42,839 --> 00:23:44,213 ukratko, 775 00:23:44,213 --> 00:23:45,880 kako si sa mnom. 776 00:23:49,005 --> 00:23:50,880 Ja stvarno ne osjećati se kao on... 777 00:23:52,171 --> 00:23:55,547 želi pokušati promijeniti ili poboljšati stvari... 778 00:23:56,213 --> 00:23:57,422 i osjećam se kao, duboko u sebi, 779 00:23:57,422 --> 00:23:58,589 on ne zna što želi. 780 00:24:00,297 --> 00:24:02,005 Koliko ovoga nekako... 781 00:24:02,422 --> 00:24:03,839 "možda je vrijeme za... 782 00:24:04,255 --> 00:24:06,088 odvojeno," koliko toga 783 00:24:06,088 --> 00:24:07,255 je li istina za tebe? 784 00:24:07,880 --> 00:24:10,255 Osjećate li se kao da ste 100% iza toga? 785 00:24:10,963 --> 00:24:11,463 Da. 786 00:24:11,963 --> 00:24:12,630 Da? 787 00:24:13,839 --> 00:24:14,380 Da. 788 00:24:14,880 --> 00:24:15,547 Mm-hm. 789 00:24:16,422 --> 00:24:17,046 a ti 790 00:24:18,589 --> 00:24:19,255 Da. 791 00:24:22,589 --> 00:24:23,297 U redu. 792 00:24:26,297 --> 00:24:27,338 - Laku vam noć. -U redu. 793 00:24:27,338 --> 00:24:28,422 -Laku noć. -Bok. 794 00:24:42,005 --> 00:24:42,839 -Bok. -Bok. 795 00:24:42,839 --> 00:24:43,921 -Bok, dobrodošli. -Kako ste? 796 00:24:43,921 --> 00:24:45,672 -Bok! -Oh, bok! 797 00:24:45,672 --> 00:24:47,589 Ajme kako prekrasno! 798 00:24:48,422 --> 00:24:49,963 Oh, ovo je, kao, najbolje iznenađenje. 799 00:24:49,963 --> 00:24:50,839 [smijeh] 800 00:24:50,839 --> 00:24:51,505 [Orna] Ja sam Orna. 801 00:24:51,505 --> 00:24:52,171 Drago mi je. 802 00:24:52,171 --> 00:24:52,921 Evelyn. 803 00:24:52,921 --> 00:24:53,797 -Evelyn. -Da. 804 00:24:54,130 --> 00:24:55,130 -Alane. -Alane. 805 00:24:55,130 --> 00:24:55,963 -Zadovoljstvo. -Bok. 806 00:24:55,963 --> 00:24:56,547 Orna. 807 00:24:56,547 --> 00:24:57,797 uđi, sjednite. 808 00:24:58,963 --> 00:25:00,005 dakle... 809 00:25:00,672 --> 00:25:01,297 razgovaraj sa mnom. 810 00:25:02,714 --> 00:25:04,505 -U redu. -[smijeh] 811 00:25:05,963 --> 00:25:07,797 Kad smo Alan i ja okupili se, 812 00:25:07,797 --> 00:25:09,880 Osjećam se kao mi uvijek imao, kao, 813 00:25:09,880 --> 00:25:10,880 ista ideja... 814 00:25:11,714 --> 00:25:14,297 ♪bluesy electric gitara♪ 815 00:25:16,505 --> 00:25:20,380 ♪ Moje uši širom otvoren♪ 816 00:25:23,046 --> 00:25:26,171 ♪ Da, ja znam te♪ 817 00:25:29,505 --> 00:25:33,046 ♪ Zadrži na razgovoru♪ 818 00:25:34,297 --> 00:25:36,046 ♪Ti pričaš o sebe♪ 819 00:25:36,046 --> 00:25:38,880 ♪ Sjedni tiho♪ 820 00:25:40,463 --> 00:25:44,463 ♪Razgovarajmo o tome ja, ja, ja♪ 821 00:25:44,463 --> 00:25:47,088 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 822 00:25:47,088 --> 00:25:51,005 ♪Razgovarajmo o tome ja, ja, ja♪ 823 00:25:51,005 --> 00:25:51,921 ♪ Ja ♪ 824 00:25:53,755 --> 00:25:55,380 ♪ Svijet je moj krevet♪ 825 00:25:55,380 --> 00:25:57,171 ♪ Leći ću tvoja glava♪ 826 00:25:57,171 --> 00:25:58,589 ♪ Zaokret tvoj vrat♪ 827 00:25:58,589 --> 00:26:00,130 ♪I jama u tvojim grudima♪ 828 00:26:00,380 --> 00:26:01,839 ♪ Ispod sam tvoja koža♪ 829 00:26:01,839 --> 00:26:03,422 ♪ Ja pravim znojiš se♪ 830 00:26:03,422 --> 00:26:04,921 ♪ Dobivam što je moje♪ 831 00:26:04,921 --> 00:26:06,422 ♪Ne treba biti blagoslovljen♪ 832 00:26:06,422 --> 00:26:10,505 ♪Razgovarajmo o tome ja, ja, ja♪ 833 00:26:10,505 --> 00:26:12,921 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 834 00:26:12,921 --> 00:26:17,088 ♪Razgovarajmo o tome ja, ja, ja♪ 835 00:26:17,088 --> 00:26:19,213 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 836 00:26:21,338 --> 00:26:24,880 ♪ Moje oči su otvoreni♪ 837 00:26:27,921 --> 00:26:30,921 ♪ Vidim kroz ti♪ 838 00:26:34,338 --> 00:26:37,921 ♪I sve tvoje problemi♪ 839 00:26:39,255 --> 00:26:40,755 ♪ Muka mi je sve tvoje psst♪ 840 00:26:42,255 --> 00:26:44,130 ♪ Dugo je kasni♪ 841 00:26:45,589 --> 00:26:49,463 ♪Razgovarajmo o tome ja, ja, ja♪ 842 00:26:49,463 --> 00:26:50,255 ♪ Ja ♪ 843 00:26:52,171 --> 00:26:53,755 ♪ Svijet je moj krevet♪ 844 00:26:53,755 --> 00:26:55,463 ♪ Leći ću tvoja glava♪ 845 00:26:55,463 --> 00:26:56,797 ♪ Zaokret tvoj vrat♪ 846 00:26:56,797 --> 00:26:58,630 ♪I jama u tvojim grudima♪ 847 00:26:58,630 --> 00:27:00,297 ♪ Ispod sam tvoja koža♪ 848 00:27:00,297 --> 00:27:01,797 ♪ Ja pravim znojiš se♪ 849 00:27:01,797 --> 00:27:03,297 ♪ Dobivam što je moje♪ 850 00:27:03,297 --> 00:27:04,839 ♪Ne treba biti blagoslovljen♪ 851 00:27:04,839 --> 00:27:08,921 ♪Razgovarajmo o tome ja, ja, ja♪ 852 00:27:08,921 --> 00:27:11,380 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 853 00:27:11,380 --> 00:27:15,338 ♪Razgovarajmo o tome ja, ja, ja♪ 854 00:27:15,338 --> 00:27:17,672 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 855 00:27:19,463 --> 00:27:22,005 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 856 00:27:22,005 --> 00:27:24,255 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 857 00:27:26,088 --> 00:27:28,213 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 858 00:27:28,213 --> 00:27:30,797 ♪ Ja, ja, ja♪ 859 00:27:31,213 --> 00:27:32,672 ♪ Svijet je moj krevet♪ 860 00:27:32,672 --> 00:27:34,255 ♪ Leći ću tvoja glava♪ 861 00:27:34,255 --> 00:27:35,839 ♪Kvar u tvom vrat i...♪